It’s about that time for a post. My life continues on and the magic of the mundane weaves it’s way through my experience. Things are happening. There are shifts. I witness my experience and have many things that I could share with my community of witches…
But here’s the thing: I honestly just don’t feel up to it.
I’m a multi-tasker with a to-do list fetish. The feeling of accomplishment feeds me and I enjoy hard work. I’m a Capricorn; I really do. However, this month has been a tough one for me and the thing that makes it feel worse is that it isn’t stemming from anything specific. I just don’t feel engaged with the things that I usually enjoy doing.
This happens to me sometimes. It might have something to do with the energy that declared itself through my monthly reading:
Probably not the energy that I would have chosen for this time of year. Alas, it is here. I’m being pierced by those swords in my mind… they pin me down from my own vitality. And so it is.
Believe it or not though, there is mundane magic that can be shared to the world from this place of pain and despair that strikes from absolutely nowhere. Perhaps even one of the most potent messages of magic that I have shared thus far:
If you feel like shit, take care of yourself.
Self-care varies from person to person. For me right now, it is sleeping “more than I need to.” It is allowing some of my tasks to slide off to the side for a while without guilt. It’s making the choice to honor what I’m feeling and adjusting my life accordingly.
There is a saying in my community: you are your own greatest magical tool. If that is the case, then it makes sense that “it” (the Self) needs to be tended to when it isn’t working as desired. How do you care for your Self?
Things this brings up for me: the different feel that preemptive self-care has in my life, this year.
I recently set the intention to consciously and publicly remove myself from a large amount of obligations so that I could take care of myself after my mother’s death. I was up front and direct about this step back with those that would be impacted. I set parameters and listened to feedback. I was deliberate.
This scenario is very different from situations in the past when I am doing self-care after the fact, trying to repair damage I have already done to myself. This feels spiritual, recentering and nourishing. I am not trying to re-fill a well that has been dry for months…and I am not dropping balls that I promised I would hold, so there isn’t any self-flagellation in the mix.
Much love to you while you tend to yourself with intention 🙂
I am all about the self care. After years of taking care of everyone else BUT myself, I realize that I need to put myself first mentally and physically. Take care of yourself and hermit if necessary. ❤